Not Saying It
Jul. 10th, 2024 10:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vanimadinNot to talk about Horror High again, but I'm going to talk about Horror High again. :D
Mostly because it's the only thing I'm working on at the moment, aside from a few sentences here-and-there in Cheap Motel as well. Basically my brain is stuck in this AU/Destiel mode and I can't seem to get away from it. Not that I necessarily WANT TO, I'm having a fuck of a lot of fun writing HH and plotting the other fics in the series (because I can never just write a stand-alone fic, that would make things easy!) but I also have Bastian from Wander wiggling in the back of my brain, so a liiiiiiittle part of me kind of wants to work on that fic, too. But HH is taking up AAAAALL of my brainspace right now, so I guess Wander will have to wait. XD;;
Anyway, HH is up to 79 pages and 37,010 words and I have given up on trying to guesstimate how long it's actually going to be in the end. Every time I check the page count I go "oh, it should be X# more pages or so" and then I go over that number DRASTICALLY, and I guess another number, and go over THAT number DRASTICALLY, and that's happened half a dozen times now and I just GIVE UP. HH is gonna be as long as it's gonna be, I guess, and I appear to have no control over that.
The other thing about HH is that it is 90% love story and only 10% monster hunting, which was NOT my intention when I first decided to write it AT ALL. Originally it was supposed to be the story of Dean's first solo Hunt (in this AU), with a bit of Destiel on the side. BUT NO. Instead it's FULLY a falling-in-love fic with just a SIDE of solo Hunt, like the smallest little bit, and I am writing so much fluff between Dean and Cas that it is making my teeth rot. Like they are SO in love (even if they refuse to actually say it.)
Also there is the smut aspect, which, originally, when I got to the first part that would have been smut I kind of balked because I wasn't sure if I wanted HH to be porny or not. But there are like FOUR OR FIVE parts that are smutty now, and I can't Fade To Black on ALL OF THEM so I ended up just deciding FUCK IT, PORN IT IS, which was interesting because I hadn't written smut in a looooooong time. :| I mean, I used to write it all the time, and I was GOOD AT IT, and I ENJOYED IT (even though I'm asexual myself; figure that one out), but I sat down to write the first smut scene for HH and I was like "..................................fuck."
I eventually got past it, obviously. There is smut in HH. I've written half of it. (Still have two scenes to write out.) But it was really surreal to sit down and write porn for the first time in years. I guess it all comes back to you, though.
idk I just hope people like this fic when I eventually finish it and start posting it. I'm going to divide it into chapters (it was NOT intended to be a chaptered fic at first lmao but now I'm looking at probably at least 9 or 10 chapters for it, depending on where I divide it) and post the chapters one-a-week on Fridays until I get the whole thing up on AO3, I guess. Also probably on Tumblr, since I still post my fics there, too. I'm nervous about this one, though, because it's my first SPN fic, my first Destiel fic, AND an AU fic to boot. Just hoping it goes over well.
I guess if nothing else I had fun writing it?
EDIT: I was talking about HH with my Mom (without getting too much into it, since she's not into SPN and obviously not Destiel) and telling her that I had two one-shots after it, followed by an actual sequel fic, and she suggested tacking Cheap Motel on to the end of HH as an Epilogue, and using Counting Scars as the Prologue to TRSF, and... I... am not entirely opposed to that idea? .__.;; I can see the benefits. But I also really like Cheap Motel and Counting Scars as actual one-shots, so idk. I'm thinking about it.
EDIT #2: I am considering re-titling The Road So Far to just "Storm Season", both because it takes place DURING A HURRICANE and also because of the STORM OF FEELS that is coming down the line. Also I have a tentative plotline for this fic now, which involves an out-of-place-palraijuq Hunt in Louisiana during hurricane season. Palraijuq are creatures from Inuit lore that resemble huge alligators, only with six legs. "Out of place" because really, the thing should be in the fucking YUKON, by all rights, not Louisiana.
EDIT #3: I also like "Storm Season" because it's alliterative like "Horror High" is and that makes them sort of matchy-matchy. :D
Mostly because it's the only thing I'm working on at the moment, aside from a few sentences here-and-there in Cheap Motel as well. Basically my brain is stuck in this AU/Destiel mode and I can't seem to get away from it. Not that I necessarily WANT TO, I'm having a fuck of a lot of fun writing HH and plotting the other fics in the series (because I can never just write a stand-alone fic, that would make things easy!) but I also have Bastian from Wander wiggling in the back of my brain, so a liiiiiiittle part of me kind of wants to work on that fic, too. But HH is taking up AAAAALL of my brainspace right now, so I guess Wander will have to wait. XD;;
Anyway, HH is up to 79 pages and 37,010 words and I have given up on trying to guesstimate how long it's actually going to be in the end. Every time I check the page count I go "oh, it should be X# more pages or so" and then I go over that number DRASTICALLY, and I guess another number, and go over THAT number DRASTICALLY, and that's happened half a dozen times now and I just GIVE UP. HH is gonna be as long as it's gonna be, I guess, and I appear to have no control over that.
The other thing about HH is that it is 90% love story and only 10% monster hunting, which was NOT my intention when I first decided to write it AT ALL. Originally it was supposed to be the story of Dean's first solo Hunt (in this AU), with a bit of Destiel on the side. BUT NO. Instead it's FULLY a falling-in-love fic with just a SIDE of solo Hunt, like the smallest little bit, and I am writing so much fluff between Dean and Cas that it is making my teeth rot. Like they are SO in love (even if they refuse to actually say it.)
Also there is the smut aspect, which, originally, when I got to the first part that would have been smut I kind of balked because I wasn't sure if I wanted HH to be porny or not. But there are like FOUR OR FIVE parts that are smutty now, and I can't Fade To Black on ALL OF THEM so I ended up just deciding FUCK IT, PORN IT IS, which was interesting because I hadn't written smut in a looooooong time. :| I mean, I used to write it all the time, and I was GOOD AT IT, and I ENJOYED IT (even though I'm asexual myself; figure that one out), but I sat down to write the first smut scene for HH and I was like "..................................fuck."
I eventually got past it, obviously. There is smut in HH. I've written half of it. (Still have two scenes to write out.) But it was really surreal to sit down and write porn for the first time in years. I guess it all comes back to you, though.
idk I just hope people like this fic when I eventually finish it and start posting it. I'm going to divide it into chapters (it was NOT intended to be a chaptered fic at first lmao but now I'm looking at probably at least 9 or 10 chapters for it, depending on where I divide it) and post the chapters one-a-week on Fridays until I get the whole thing up on AO3, I guess. Also probably on Tumblr, since I still post my fics there, too. I'm nervous about this one, though, because it's my first SPN fic, my first Destiel fic, AND an AU fic to boot. Just hoping it goes over well.
I guess if nothing else I had fun writing it?
EDIT: I was talking about HH with my Mom (without getting too much into it, since she's not into SPN and obviously not Destiel) and telling her that I had two one-shots after it, followed by an actual sequel fic, and she suggested tacking Cheap Motel on to the end of HH as an Epilogue, and using Counting Scars as the Prologue to TRSF, and... I... am not entirely opposed to that idea? .__.;; I can see the benefits. But I also really like Cheap Motel and Counting Scars as actual one-shots, so idk. I'm thinking about it.
EDIT #2: I am considering re-titling The Road So Far to just "Storm Season", both because it takes place DURING A HURRICANE and also because of the STORM OF FEELS that is coming down the line. Also I have a tentative plotline for this fic now, which involves an out-of-place-palraijuq Hunt in Louisiana during hurricane season. Palraijuq are creatures from Inuit lore that resemble huge alligators, only with six legs. "Out of place" because really, the thing should be in the fucking YUKON, by all rights, not Louisiana.
EDIT #3: I also like "Storm Season" because it's alliterative like "Horror High" is and that makes them sort of matchy-matchy. :D
